Dealing with Depression in Your Own Way

I wanted to share a story I wrote for a contest with everyone. The story happened to win, which I am extremely excited about, but even if it hadn’t won, I wanted to share. A couple of years ago I started dealing with depression due to a myriad of things happening in my life. I fought through it with the help of some medication and discovering CrossFit. Unfortunately, again because of a myriad of things, I’m dealing with a slight tinge of depression, but I’m not combating it with medication this time, just going through the motions and doing my best to look forward to better days ahead. Marlise Langenhoven dealt with clinical depression for almost her entire life, but because she discovered horses and the power they have to make everything better, she’s now medication-free and living her life in a more positive light. Is she 100 percent cured? No. But she’s doing everything she’s ever wanted to do now and enjoying life with her family. All thanks to finding the Time To Ride.

Not Your Standard Medication

Depression is like a dark hole, and there are days that you struggle just to see a glimmer of light. For some it can be crippling, but others find a way to fight through. They might do it on their own, with medication, or with the help of angels around them.

For Marlise Langenhoven, her angels just came in the form of horses.   Riding horses has been a lifelong dream for Marlise, but it was unreachable in her early years. Growing up in South Africa, horses and riding were for the more privileged.   Marlise grew up moving around a lot with her family moving to the United States when she was 28 years old. She struggled through abuse as a child and multiple moves until she became an adult and married her husband of 20 years, Mark.

Then came her first child, and the stressors of being a new mom and the new challenges the dynamic change brought about led to her diagnosis of clinical depression.   “I was very depressed, on medications … having a hard time coping with life in general,” Marlise recalls.

Then one day her daughter suggested riding lessons. “When she said that, my heart kind of sunk a little bit because where I come from, riding is a very expensive hobby, and my family couldn’t afford it at all,” she says.  Still, she looked around her home in Murfreesboro, Tenn., for a place to just take one lesson at the age of 38.

“I can remember the first time I got on and started riding,” she says. “I was just on a lunge line going around in a circle, but I can still remember how it felt to just be on a horse and to do something I have always wanted to do.”

Expecting to only take one lesson, Marlise was hooked from the very first step and continued her lessons, even though she was one of the oldest riders at her first trainer’s farm.

“When it comes to riding as an older adult, it’s very intimidating…at least it was for me,” she says. “You’re surrounded by all these young kids who are much better than you are.”

Ending the Victim Cycle

Marlise found that with every lesson, every little thing that she started getting right during her lessons, as a rider, pushed her to want to do more. She felt accomplished after every ride, no matter how small the gains were.   After about a year, Marlise and her daughter moved on to their current trainer, Lauren Romanelli in College Grove, Tenn. In one of her early lessons, Lauren said something that hit home to Marlise.

“Lauren would say, ‘Stop riding like a victim.’ But I had no idea what she meant,” she says. “I had my shoulders back, my chin was up, and heels down.”

Then it hit Marlise that she needed to let go of all the negativity and early struggles, and just live in the moment.

“Dealing with horses really taught me that I had to deal with my stuff and that I had some unpacking to do, instead of keeping it all boarded up,” she reveals. “I just needed to leave it alone and move on. Go forward.”  Her new life mantra was to no longer look back: “If you want to accomplish anything with riding, you have to move forward. You don’t achieve anything by looking back.”

Moving Forward

Now Marlise and her daughter share a leased horse together. It’s wasn’t long before Marlise was learning about more than just counting strides between jumps, but other horsemanship skills. With each stall she mucked, each hoof picked, each horse groomed and fed, she discovered more of the beauty and the strength that radiated from horses.   “

One of my favorite charges, Chance, would give me big hugs and nibble my back pockets whenever I picked his feet,” she says. “And with every perceived show of affection, or evidence of trust earned, another little piece of me would fall back into place. My time at the barn was the joy of my life.”

Marlise has also learned that life, like jumping, is about making adjustments as best you can as you go. Some days you ace it and other days not so much, but tomorrow, you tack up again, take a deep breath and try all over. It’s enlightened her and given her a new lease on life, a life without any more depression medication or extra weight. While her depression isn’t totally in the rearview mirror, she continues to manage it with exercise, riding, and therapy when needed. She attributes it all to her time spent in the saddle and in the barn, looking up and moving forward.

Marlise enjoying competing at her first three-day event with a fellow adult rider in 2015.

Marlise enjoying competing at her first three-day event with a fellow adult rider in 2015.

“I do think there is something to be said about riding and being around horses. That has really, really helped me,” says Marlise. “For me, at the barn it’s all about being in the moment—you focus on just you and your horse. There’s always something you need to focus on when you’re at the barn, and because you’re focusing on these little things while you’re riding, you shut out everything else going on. For that time, I am not a mother, I am not a wife, I don’t have responsibilities … all I have to worry about is in that barn—me and my horse.

“For that time, I can just be me, I can just be that young girl that has always wanted to ride, but never had that opportunity. For that time I can be living my dream. It’s like the only real selfish time that I have, and I’m really, truly selfish with it—I don’t care about anyone else, I don’t think about anyone else, it’s just me and my horse and riding, and our connection.”

Dear Aubrey – 9 Months


Dear Aubrey, 

You are getting so grown up! You are now 9-months-old and probably at least once a day I say I can’t believe you were the same tiny baby, whose eyes never opened (because you slept the whole time) and we thought we’d never get to grow.

You’re still such a happy girl. You love everyone, but especially your family. Mornings are so nice because we spend quiet time together reading while you have a bottle, then you play for a little bit before breakfast and the craziness of the day begins. You still do daily trips to the barn with momma, most times in your Lile Baby Carrier (on the back), but sometimes in your stroller as well. You’re still enjoying swim class, and every week you get better and better, even starting to swim towards momma!

Remember when you were tiny, and you maybe made the 15th percentile in weight? Well, at your 9-month doctor’s appointment, you’ve blown those small numbers out of the water!

Height: 29.5 inches (97th percentile)
Weight: 20 lbs 6 ounces (82nd percentile)
Head: 44.5 cm (68th percentile)

You got to decorate your first pumpkin for your first Halloween! We decided it’d be best if you painted instead of us carving, so I made some finger paint that would be alright if you tried to eat it (which you did). You had fun getting your pumpkin, and yourself, all colorful.


Your Uncle Jerry finally found a swing so you have a swing at home, and you love it! We try to go out everyday to swing, even if just for a few minutes, because momma believes the fresh air is good for the soul, and you just have a good time. I’ll push you while we play tennie with the dogs–you love watching them play and bark all the time.


Speaking of play, you’re finally starting to get the hang of your play dates with Claire. We try to go over to Brooke’s house once a week so you and Claire can play with each other, and momma and Brooke can chat.


October has been a pretty quiet month, as far as events and things. Daddy’s been home more, which you’re enjoying (and so is mom). We’re getting into the holiday season, so we’re already trying to figure out how to decorate while you’re getting more and more mobile (you’re so close to crawling!). But I can’t wait to share the holidays with you.

You’re saying “Mom-mom” and sometimes “ba-ba” for words, and you understand the sign language when I ask if you want a “ba-ba” when you start to get fussy. You’re eating solid food now–anything and everything! You like to feed yourself, so it’s hard to feed you anything unless you can grab the spoon and “help” us feed you. But that’s OK. You seem to still love your sweet potatoes and green beans, plus chicken and scrambled eggs and blueberries. Mandarin oranges are a new fave, as are roasted red bell peppers.

It’s been so fun watching you grow and learn. I know I say that every month. But I can’t wait for the next few months with you!


Dear Aubrey, 8 Months of Smiles


Eight months ago, a scrawny little baby girl came into my world and changed it in so many ways. She’s no longer scrawny, but finally a happy, healthy girl! Aubrey, you’ve grown so much, and continue to grow and learn!

Where should we start? We’ve run two 5K races together, and they’ve been a blast! The first was the Colts 5K, which had me pushing you around downtown. Then a couple weeks later we ran a 5K at a local winery, where mommy even improved our stroller time! I really enjoy running while pushing you in the stroller because it’s something that gets us both outside and I hope it teaches you to live a healthy lifestyle. As the days grow shorter and get cooler now, I’m not sure how much longer we’ll be able to enjoy our stroller runs together this year.


You’re loving eating like a big girl. We’ve been feeding you lots of homemade foods, and we even started feeding you some of the same stuff we’ve been eating, like our spaghetti squash baked spaghetti (with ground turkey, spaghetti squash, tomato sauce, and zucchini) and chicken and noodles. At first you weren’t too sure about the foods, but I think you like them better than plain veggies and fruit!

You’re not crawling, yet, but you’re having a good time standing when we hold you up. You think it’s a blast to climb out of our laps in the chair, then wiggle yourself to the floor where you can stand up. You’re bouncing a lot more in your ExerSaucer, and we have one of those door bouncer things that you are still getting used to, but needless to say, you love to be on your feet. If we’re not holding you up, you’re rolling everywhere you want to go. There are times we think you’re going to walk before you crawl, but we’ll just see how that goes.

Speaking of modes of transportation–you’ve been having more fun riding the horses and ponies lately. Brooke, mommy’s friend, has a pony riding business, and one of the ponies stayed at the farm one weekend. You got to ride around on her one evening when mommy was doing her chores. Then you visited the ponies for more rides. I can’t wait until we can get you a pony of your own and you can start leading it around and learning to ride!


We took you to the local apple/pumpkin farm where you got to choose your own pumpkin, ride on a tractor ride, and, of course, ride ponies. We know you probably don’t really get what all we’re doing, but it’s still fun to take you and let you experience new adventures.

Fun times at Stuckey Farms!

Fun times at Stuckey Farms!

You’re mostly wearing 9 months clothing, some 12-month pants, and a few 6-9 shirts. We’re trying to get you outfitted for colder weather, which means actually wearing socks/shoes, jackets, etc. Grammie says no more naked feet when it’s cold out!

I promise your 9-month post won’t be so late next month! Love you, baby girl!

Red, White & Rose 5K – Another Stroller run

September means the start of Fall festivals and lots of activities. This past weekend my mom’s shop had a booth at a local winery’s Fall Harvest Festival, which was also the second stop on a tour of races at Central Indiana wineries called the Red, White, & Rose race series. You can choose between running a 5K or 10K, and at the finish is a glass of wine, medal (corresponding with how many races in the series you’ve run), and free wine!

I’m not much of a wine drinker, but sign me up! My sister wanted to do the 5K, her first in four years. I was trying to decide between running in the 10K or pushing Baby A&W in the stroller for the 5K (she doesn’t like to go much longer than 4 miles in the stroller). At the last minute I decided I’d stick with pushing A in the stroller for at least one more 5K race.

Baby A&W has her game face on for the race.

Baby A&W has her game face on for the race.

The race small, about 215 running in both the 5 and 10Ks, but it was nice. The route was run along country roads by the winery, with very little traffic, and held in the early evening. The weather was perfect, especially after the chilly, wet start to the day.

Start of the race was a little tight with the country road.

Start of the race was a little tight with the country road.

I started next to my sister, but then slowly pulled away. I wanted to just go at a comfortable pace, but I also wanted to push our speed a little bit more. Then I just made my way through the crowd.

When we turned west after a half mile, we hit a strong headwind and the sunset. Headwinds suck, but they suck more while pushing a stroller! Plus I wanted to try to get A out of the sun as quickly as possible, so I pushed the pace a little faster. Once we turned south, we were out of the headwind and I was in a groove.

Finishing strong, A does not look too thrilled in this photo, but it was time for her dinner (which we promptly fed her as soon as I got her back to my mom's booth).

Finishing strong, A does not look too thrilled in this photo, but it was time for her dinner (which we promptly fed her as soon as I got her back to my mom’s booth).

We ended up finishing 26th overall, with a time of 30:00 and fourth in my age group (30-39)…with a stroller! I had a lot of compliments as to how I ran the race while pushing A. I’m sure I would have done better without the stroller, but it was more fun to let A experience the countryside and another race with her momma.

I’m continuing my race training for a half marathon in early November, but the mileage build up is slow. I’m not sure how many more races I’ll do this year with the stroller, but I hope to try to continue running with A until it gets too cold. It’s hard to believe summer is over!

Baby's first race medal!

Baby’s first race medal!

Link Love: Strong Women for Girl Power

This edition of Link Love is all about being a strong woman and having girl power. I want Baby A to be a strong woman and believe in girl power!


Why Your Daughter Should Do CrossFit (Tabata Times): Can I love this any more?? I would love for Baby A&W to follow in her mom’s footsteps of being active, as well as loving CrossFit. M and I are always talking about what sports she’ll play (she’s a natural swimmer, but I’d also love for her to play volleyball), and how she’ll be a horse girl. But I know she might not like all of that, and might surprise us. But I would love for her to workout with her mom, be healthy, and just happy with her body from the very beginning, and CrossFit helps all of that.

PSA: It’s Time to Stop Body Shaming Once and For All (Snacking in Sneakers): When Chrissy posted she wanted to write this post on the Sweat Pink Facebook page, I had to share my story about the doctor and my “abnormal athletic female body.” Her story, as well as the story of others in this post, really burns my biscuits that we are OK with this type of conversation. Again, this shines a light on how I want Baby A&W to grow up, and this isn’t one of those ways.

Loving Your Body is a Marathon, Not a Sprint (Lifting Revolution): Taylorr posted an eye-opening number, that 91% of women hate their bodies. Can you imagine Gisele hating her body? (OK, she might definitely be in the 9%) But, it reminds me that I’m not alone. I’m struggling with my body image because I still haven’t lost all the baby weight. I don’t fit in all of my pre-pregnancy clothes very well (just because it zips doesn’t mean it fits), so it’s frustrating to get dressed in the morning. But then I stop myself…I don’t want Baby A&W to be in that 91%. I don’t want her to hear me talk about negatively about my body, which will, in turn, make her feel like it’s alright to do the same about herself. It’s time we flip the stats around!

Colts 5K — First Race with a Stroller

Competing in the Colts 5K was a fun time. I only had a little bit of nerves because of my running partner–it was her first race so I wasn’t sure how she’d handle it. Would she be alright with the crowds? Would I push her too fast? Would she have a blowout in her diaper mid-race?

Hold up…blowout in her diaper? Yep, my running partner was my baby girl! We’ve been working for this race, slowly adding miles in the stroller to get her accustomed to the time spent and me accustomed to the extra weight and resistance that comes with pushing something up and down hills.

Race day dawned bright and early…about 30 minutes earlier than planned (apparently Baby A&W didn’t know I had set my alarm). That was OK, I got up and dressed quickly (I laid out my race outfit the night before, as well as hers), then got A up. I changed her diaper and got her dressed in her Colts onesie and shorts, plus a fresh diaper, and headed down for our pre-race meal–a piece of whole wheat toast with peanut butter for me, and a bottle of formula and bowl of oatmeal for her.

The stroller was already packed in the car, and so was her diaper bag. For the race, I didn’t want to be weighed down by my giant diaper bag, so I threw my Brica goPad Diaper Changer, which was great because it held 3 diapers, plus a small pack of wipes, and some small trash bags to dispose of the dirty diapers. It worked great! We ended up having to change A’s diaper after the race…in the end zone of the Colts’ stadium (Lucas Oil Stadium). (Hey, how many babies can say that??)


The race started a little after 8. I lined up with a friend in the 10 minute pace, towards the back of that pack. I was going to do my best to not the stroller wheel into anyone, but I couldn’t guarantee it. Well, I only hit three people, and it was only minor, so I was proud of myself for that!

I had to remind myself to be patient with my weaving and moving around if we needed to pass people. Running with a stroller isn’t as flexible as running alone. I made sure to give us a wider berth in our route, and didn’t cut corners tightly. There were a few inconsiderate runners–one guy dashed across our running path, cutting it so close he almost hit my front tire.

Overall, the course was stroller-friendly, especially runner friendly. We started in front of the stadium, then ran the last tenth of a mile into and through the stadium. That part was really cool–we actually ran through the tunnel that the Indianapolis Colts run through when they come onto the field on game day. Then the finish line was the 50 yard line. The energy was awesome, and it was fun seeing the Colts cheerleaders lining up the last part of the race.


We waited around and took photos while waiting for M and my brother-in-law, who were walking the race. Then we had to hurry on out because I needed to be on the road to Lexington for a friend’s baby shower.

But not before A met Blue, the Indianapolis Colts mascot… (she wasn’t sure about his furry arms and kept trying to pluck them LOL)


I’m already looking forward to another fun race to do with the stroller. I hope to make running something Baby A&W can do together for a long time. While I don’t know if I see myself racing further than a 5K with a stroller (maybe a 10K, if I can build up her patience), they’re more fun that way.

I wasn’t able to get my race photo at this time, but once I do, I’ll post it–I’m pretty proud of it! :-)

Your turn: Have you, or would you, run a race pushing a stroller?

Dear Aubrey – 7 Months


Dear Aubrey,

Seven months!! We’re on the downward spiral to 1 year old! I laugh when I say that. But, really, I can’t believe we’re already at 7 months. You continue to grow and change everyday, and you’re really starting to become your own person.

Last month was a big one as far as action for you. We had your official 6-month photos taken on Grammie & Grandpie’s farm, and you were such a little trooper and a ham in front of the camera. Dally and LaMesa even got into the photos a couple of times, which makes my heart swell.


We took you to the Indiana State Fair, where you got to see so many cool things, and even rode the carousel with momma for the first time. You weren’t too sure when the carousel started moving and the horse was going higher and higher, so I held you through the ride, and you were OK with that.


You’ve been sitting in high chairs when we go to restaurants, and you like it so much better. Because of that, we’re starting to let you try to feed yourself and work on picking up things with your fingers. It takes you a while, but you’re getting the hang of it. Meanwhile, you have fun making a big mess.

Eating-wise, you’re still doing well. We’ve been trying so many new foods, and you haven’t really had a problem with any of them.

We also ran in our first 5K together in August! Momma pushed you in your stroller for the Colts 5K in downtown Indianapolis. You handled everything so well, and we finished in around 31 minutes, which is a great time! While we waited for your Uncle Jerry and daddy to finish, we took photos, fed you a bottle, and even had to change your diaper in the end zone of Lucas Oil Stadium–how many babies can say that? ;-)


Just last week we took you on your first long car ride (longer than 3.5 hours) as we traveled to Savannah, Ga., for mommy’s cousin’s wedding. We took two days to drive out there and two days to drive back, staying in hotels along the way. You handled everything so well. There were times you hated being in your car seat, because you had been in it for so long, so I can understand. And when we’d put you to sleep in your pack and play, you slept so well for everything going on. I took you to Tybee Island, where we traveled up the lighthouse (such a great workout for mommy, haha) and you got to see the ocean and the beach for the first time! There were storms and rain in the area, so we couldn’t stay long, but you were able feel the sand, have the waves crash against your little chubby legs, and watch the seagulls flying around. I know your daddy wished he could have been there, but we know we’ll return sometime soon.

Tybee Island Beach

Tybee Island Beach

You’re recognizing important people in your life, and smile whenever you see them. You haven’t said any real words, yet, but when you’re crying for me it’s like you say “Mim” instead of “mom”, which is cute. You’ve really started rolling around now–remember when I said that after your 4-month birthday you rolled once and that was it? Well now you roll over all of the time. You love your Zippy for sleeping, which makes us happy.

No teeth, yet, but you’re back to slobbering and sucking on things a lot, so time will tell.

I love your little hugs you give me all the time, your laughs and giggles. You’ve figured out how to fake coughs and sneezes because you know you’ll get a reaction. Your personality is growing more and more.

Love you, baby girl!

Running While Pushing — Stroller Runs!

You might remember that while I was pregnant, I wanted to continue running for as long as I could, even completing a half marathon around 7 months pregnant. Shortly thereafter I stopped doing long training runs and just did short one milers interspersed with some weight training while doing CrossFit. Then it just became too uncomfortable to run very far (read: away from a toilet) and I knew it was time to slow it down and just walk.

Now that Baby A&W is 6 months old, I’ve been getting back into running and increasing my distance. I’ve been running again for a while now, I started back in April, but the distances weren’t too great, and the runs were irregular. I had to go only when M was home and could watch the baby, or when I got my jogging stroller, we could go for short runs while I pushed. (Let me tell you, pushing a baby, in her carseat in the jogging stroller, up and over the hills in my old neighborhood sucked, especially being out of shape!)

First stroller runs were rough, with the addition of the carseat (since A was too small to sit in the big kids seat) and just getting back into running after giving birth.

First stroller runs were rough, with the addition of the carseat (since A was too small to sit in the big kids seat) and just getting back into running after giving birth.

Now that life is a little different, I’m able to get out and run more, but mostly the same strip over and over. One of the disadvantages to living in the country is there’s not much to spice up the run like when I lived in Lexington–there were all kinds of different routes I could take from my house, and I could meet up with running buddies or my running group. Now I’m missing my running group, and my running buddies, who kept me motivated and kept me running regularly. However, I am making sure I get at least one run in a week, though I know it needs to be more.

I quickly learned that running with a stroller is a lot different than running on your own. You’ve already got a built-in head wind/resistance thing going for you. And you’re not necessarily the one who calls the shots as to how long your runs get to be–if baby’s unhappy, that run better be fast and short. Luckily, Baby A&W has been pretty good about the runs. Sometimes she gets a little too warm (no shade along the road doesn’t help), but she’s pretty good.

We’ve slowly worked our way up to running 4 miles with the stroller, which is great! I try to run with the stroller one day, then if I can talk someone into watching A for about an hour, I’ll sneak in a run by myself. Those runs are when I test my pace and I test my distance–I should be able to run a little further without the stroller than I do with the stroller because it should be easier, right?

Aubrey and I are getting ready to run in our first 5K together–it’ll be my first race since I finished the Iron Horse Half Marathon back in October, and it’ll be my first race pushing a stroller! We’re running in the Colts Kickoff 5K in downtown Indianapolis, where we’ll start the race outside Lucas Oil Stadium, and then finish at the 50 yard line of the field! I’m excited for the race, but a little nervous as to how things will go with a big crowd and me pushing the stroller. Plus, how will A act?

Don’t worry, I plan to chronicle our race and show you what I did to prepare not only myself, but baby, for the 5K. My goals for the race are to try to run the whole 5K without walking (or, rather, needing to walk, as I’m sure the crowd might force me to walk) and to not run into anyone with the stroller (the dogs will tell you that sometimes I don’t see what’s going on directly in front of the stroller sometimes).

Dear Aubrey-6 Months!


Dear Aubrey,

We’ve made it to half a year! It’s amazing to think that you’re already 6 months (26 weeks) old! When I look at photos of you your first week and then look at you now, I can’t believe that you’re the same baby girl.

"Mom, I am NOT a kettlebell!"

“Mom, I am NOT a kettlebell!”

Your 6 Months Stats:
Length: 27.25″ (93rd percentile)
Weight: 16 lbs 4 oz (52nd percentile)
Head circumference: 42.5 cm (58th percentile)

You’re growing so much in so many different ways every day. You’ve really started watch and appreciate the animals. You’ll reach out to LaMesa for pets and then giggle when she starts to lick your hands and toes. When she and Dally start to play, you watch the excitement and have even started really laughing at them. You like to reach for the cats, too. We’ll have to keep an eye on you, as you’re grabbing and pulling a little on their fur, and while our puppies and kitties have been pretty good about it, you never want to test them.

You love to eat! We’ve been feeding you for about a month now, now eating three times a day, like your momma. We’ve been doing oatmeal with prunes in the morning, then something for lunch and dinner. For the most part, mommy’s been making your food, trying to keep some things chunky to help you start to learn to chew already. Grammie even made you homemade applesauce, which you liked better than the Gerber apples.

Foods you love: sweet potatoes, peas, butternut squash, pears, peaches, prunes, applesauce

Foods you don’t love: beets, green beans (but if I mix them with the food you love, you’ll eat them right up), plain oatmeal


I really want to do baby-led weaning, which allows you to pick up small chunks of food yourself and feed yourself, but we don’t have a high chair at the moment. I’m looking forward to discussion things with your pediatrician at your 6-month appointment later this week to make sure I’m doing everything alright.


We finished Water Babies at Stony Creek Swim Center last week. It was sad to find out that that was your last class, but you’re now moved up to Little Swimmers 1 and we’ll hopefully be starting that class soon. You just love swimming. Even on your worst days (total grouch face), you totally change when we get to the pool and you smile and laugh the entire time. We had started dunking you under water, and learning to push off the wall, and you’ve been doing great. You also loved when you floated in the shark floaties for more tummy time.


We took you to your first county fair, where you got to meet cows, goats, rabbits, sheep, and pigs for the first time. You weren’t sure what to think about the pigs and the cows, but  you were a trooper in the heat. We’ve also gone to the farmers’ market a couple of times, and you just hang out the whole time.


The past week or so, you’ve really started teething, even to the point of waking up screaming sometimes. It breaks your momma’s heart to see you hurting like that, but you’ve been as good as can be about it all. We got you some more teething toys, like your “Chew-Dog” and Chew Beads for your pacifier and you really like those. Teething is not fun!

Loving our

Loving our “Chew-Dog”

Daddy’s been gone a lot lately, but when he’s home he pours so much love over you! And so does momma. I’ve enjoyed these couple of months of being a stay-at-home-working-mom because I’ve gotten to see you grow and change so much. You’re sitting up on your own now, and while you haven’t rolled over much, I’m realizing that’s OK–you’re still pretty strong and loving life.

I can’t believe we’re on the downward slope to your 1 year. Can time slow down a little?

Love you, baby girl!

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Link Love: Giving Moms Some Love

I’ve found myself reading more and more about being a mother, how to help baby, and how to stay sane than I ever thought I would! It just comes with the territory of being a new mom, I guess. But I found a couple of articles/blog posts that have hit home that I wanted to share for new (or not-so-new) moms like myself. Enjoy!


New Research Shows Equine-Assisted Intervention Can Have Significant Improvement on Mother-Child Engagement (Equine Chronicle): Growing up in a horse family, I have to say that I completely agree–horses can bring a family together. It was because of horses that we spent weekends together and because of horses there were many late nights at the barn. We didn’t have as much technology back then, but it was simple, and nice. I’m looking forward to sharing horses with Baby A&W and I hope it can bring our little family together just like it did as I was growing up.

Things I Need My Daughter to Know (Scary Mommy): OMG I love the Scary Mommy site! As a new mom, it seems like their posts are always so timely and hit me so hard. This one is something I want to keep in my back pocket for when A grows up. I’m so nervous about raising a daughter in the current state of affairs the world is in, but I know she’s going to be strong and smart because that’s my goal.

Balancing Blogging & A Baby (The Lunchbox Diaries): I’m trying to find that balance of work, blogging, life, and baby…as you can tell from my long breaks between posts. I was happy to take a maternity leave from blogging after A was born, but after five months, it’s time to get back into the swing of things. Kind of appropriate timing, don’t you think?

Your turn: What’s been some of your favorite reads lately?